Second Semester, Candidacy, and the Search for Sleep

 Second Semester, Candidacy, and the Search for Sleep
February 18, 2022

Hello All!! 

I know it has been awhile, so I thought it was time for an update. We are a few weeks into Second Semester and classes are going well. They are challenging and there is a lot of good information gained in each class session. My classes this term are Theology of the Liturgy; Christology and Soteriology; Pentateuch and Historical Literature; Anthropology, Sin and Grace; Patristics II; and Synoptic Gospels: Luke and Acts. Our line up of professors is top notch and I have thoroughly enjoyed each class thus far. 

Last Wednesday, myself, and fifteen other members of my class went through the Rite of Admission to Candidacy for Holy Orders. In simple terms, this is where a seminarian officially becomes a seminarian so to speak. Before a Bishop (in this case Bishop Sis of San Angelo, Texas), men resolve themselves to complete their formation in due course and also resolve to prepare yourself in mind and spirit to give faithful service to the Church. Through this Rite, men preparing for the preisthood take a first intial step forward. This stems from a time in the Church where there were a number of minor orders a man went through before ordiantion. Going through Candidacy has been a great opportunity for prayer and reflection. I am confident that I am still where the Lord is calling me to be. I look forward to continuing my journey towards God's holy priesthood. 

This year has been both challenging and grace-filled. Since the end of October, I have been struggling to sleep a full night. Needless to say, it has been a challenge to focus on classes, keep a regular prayer routine, and maintain a high level of energy. It has been an adventure trying to figure out what is wrong - a few differnent medications, most of which have not worked. The next step will be a sleep study, hopefully in the coming weeks. In the mean time, naps and trying to rest when time allows are essential. I ask for your prayers as I continue to navigate these issues. 

Spring Semester also brings with it the season of peer and self observations. These were all turned in last week for Theology 1. In reflecting on the year, it has become clear to me that God is a constant presence walking through life with me. In the midst of all the struggles, God has been with me. It has also become clear to me that I live out of a "lone-wolf" mentality a lot of the time. I think I can do everything by myself and I do not need to rely on or confide in others when I am struggling. This is not a healthy way for anyone to get through life, let alone a person studying for the priesthood. I have been trying to be more open with other people, especially when things are not going well. It is a hard habit to break, but with time I hope I can get better at it. 

All things considered, things are going well and I am where I am supposed to be. God is good. As we approach the season of Lent, please know of my prayers for all of you. Thanks for your prayers in return. 

Pax et bonum,

Jake